Sunday, June 13, 2010

desire and be disappointed

people do some fucked up things to one another, and i'm no exception.. a look in the mirror shows me that i'm completely capable of all the wrongs that have been done to me, and others that i know. i guess i always thought if i founded a relationship (friendly, more than friendly, professional, otherwise) with an open understanding of this truth, and a vow to consciously break the mold, that maybe it would result in something healthy, conscious, forward moving, and good... but so far, it has just lead to disappointment in others and in myself..

as the zen buddhists say, desire and be disappointed.

2 more days, then i'm disappearing for a long time.

no desires, no expectations, no distractions.

2 comments:

  1. thats what life is: suffering is a part of life. you could always become a monk and remove all desires from your life OR continue on, because what else do we have?? Seriously, what else do we have? Enjoy New Mexico...

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  2. dude, this really sucks to read.

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